Bloom Lyrics
In a darkened room my body lay, tumours blooming in my brain
I am consumed by an unfulfilling sadness
Not even misery loves me
I'm alone, and I'm afraid I always will be
My mother knows that I am sick
But I hate that she can't understand
Whilst I am grateful for her love
It won't stop the shaking of my hands
I can't apologise enough
I live a life devoid of love
And I always thought I could escape this
Like silence would help me to sleep
I found no bliss in my ignorance
I found no love where you said it would be
No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak
No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak
I sleep with discontent, sorrow creeps around my neck
And I fear that I may choke to death
Your name still hangs in every note
And I've tried to fumigate my throat
No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak
No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak
About
‘'Bloom’‘ is an attempt to describe the feeling of deterioration and decay brought about by introversion through my depression. It discusses the idea that a self-deprecating cycle of blame and isolation has a tendency to take control, distracting me from any attempt to improve my state of mind.
Q&A
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Vocalist Tom Weaver told New-Transcendence about the concept and meaning behind ‘'Bloom’‘.
‘'Bloom’‘ was the first real departure, lyrically at least, from the typical idea of “love” that I’d written about heavily prior to Love Is Not Enough. Thematically, it’s geared towards an appreciation of self, or I suppose more broadly the idea of “self-care”, but describes a perpetual cycle of blame and isolation, that can be so confining to people with depression and other similar mental health issues.
The “you” mentioned in the lyrics of ‘'Bloom’‘ refer to depression specifically, rather than a person. I like the chorus of ’‘Bloom’‘ a lot, I think “too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak” is a good summary of the overarching concept of that song. I suppose my own interpretation of that line would be “too pre-occupied with removing my own autonomy and confidence to attempt to resolve the roots of my depression’‘.
Weaver also said the following in the track-by-track for New Noise.
“Bloom” is an attempt to describe the feeling of deterioration and decay brought about by introversion through my depression. It discusses the idea that a self-deprecating cycle of blame and isolation tends to take control, distracting me from any attempt to improve my state of mind; in the line “too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak” teeth are used as a metaphor for self-regard and pride.
Toby and I wrote the music to this, well, at least the skeleton structure to the song, in about 30 minutes. It began at a restaurant near his house, with me tapping out a beat on the table and him humming the opening bass line.