When I Lost It Lyrics
Could it be you, calling me down
My foolish heart, turns out the stars
All that I am, is all that you see
You don't need nobody else
And you're putting this all on me
Forgetting that
There's no greater love, just open your eyes
Just hold out your hand, and place it in mine
Forever it's you, forever it's me
You don't need nobody else it's all yours but you fail to see
[Verse 1: Kur]
All I ever wanted was to see her smile
We fell of when she said, "We bout to have a child."
I'm still a child, I'm having doubts
I'm down and I'm out
How the fuck I'm gon' provide?
I should've never left
Should've been right by your side
What if I don't make it?
We'll call up friends, we'll call up family
We'll need more paper
Wish you had more patience
I was scared to tell my aunt, I hated those lectures
Plus she ain't know how that one night was so special, so precious
Fuck abortion, I wanted to kill the baby myself
Put some glass in your milk and have you coughing up blood
Asking for help, I'm all for myself
I was about to smoke wet because I thought it would help
And I almost cried when I wrote this shit
Wanted to die cuz I was broke as shit
You about to have a baby
I'm stressing like where my folks gon' live?
I ain't never want my child to have to go through shit
I always wanted us to have a bond
Cuz I ain't have one with my mom
And I ain't have one with my pop
I grew up and I seen a lot, ain't want my child to see it
Father figure don't know how to be it
How to be a man, I'm not a man, I don't know how to teach it
My ex girl cheated on me and she caught Herpes (Bitch!)
And it left her speechless
I'm just dropping a secret, I'm just guessing we're even
But if that shit was up to me man she wouldn't be breathin'
Believe me, It was so many nights was bout to rock myself
Wait, Shit, I had to stop myself
If I don't got nobody man I got myself
Nobody ever gave me shit, I had to grind myself
So get it aborted, cuz uh, we can't afford it
I ain't trynna give orders
We ain't ready for daughters, we ain't ready for sons
We living off quarters, uh, fuck unemployment
Damn, look how our joy went
After this song, you might look at me different
Lost connection plus the past are missing
You plus me equals forever I'm a mathematician
Just don't want us to make no bad decisions
After this song, you might look at me different
Lost connection plus the past are missing
You plus me equals forever I'm a mathematician
Just don't want us to make no bad decisions
About
This song like many of Kur’s songs is a reflection of a prominent situation that he went through. He talks about the struggle he went through with his baby mom. He explains how he had to accept the fact that she was having the baby. He knew that because of the way he was living his life, he couldn’t take care of the baby. He also describes whence instead of just having an abortion he’d rather killed the baby on his own, as he says “Fuck abortion, I wanted to kill the baby myself, Put some glass in your milk and have you coughing up blood.”
This was a very severe time in Kur’s life. When he raps in his new mixtape 180, he discusses a lot about how he came up from and made a switch from being broke and poor to being a worldwide known rapper. This may have been one of the circumstances he explains.
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