Ariana Grande still has tears left to cry.
The 26-year-old pop star issued a statement, which has since been deleted, following her Saturday concert in St. Louis to explain why she broke down in tears while performing “R.E.M.”
“tour is wild. Life is wild,” Grande wrote on Twitter. “i’m grateful for the sea of love i have around me everyday and for the people who come to these shows and give all of us every ounce of energy they’ve got. i’m grateful to work with the best musicians and dancers in the world. i’m grateful for my voice and my team. i’m grateful for this music. i’m grateful for my tour bus driver, Kurt who bought me pickles yesterday because he saw we ran out.”
Grande, whose ex-boyfriend Mac Miller died of an overdose at age 26 in September, said she’s “grounded” by her fans’ continuous support.
“i’m grateful for the opportunity to sing to thousands of people every night,” she continued. “it’s a dream come true. no matter how hard it gets or how many feelings come up that are screaming at me to be processed and sorted through one day, i’m grounded by gratitude and promise not to give up on what i’ve started.”
The “7 Rings” songstress alluded to Miller’s death, as well as her broken engagement from ex-fiancé Pete Davidson.
“i feel everything very intensely and have committed to doing this tour during a time in my life when i’m still processing a lot … so sometimes i cry a lot!” she quipped. “i thank you for accepting my humanness. i’m not sure what i did to deserve to meet so many loving souls every night / to feel so much love, but i want you to know that it really does carry me through. i feel it and appreciate it. and all of you show much.”
The singer ended her message hoping it would inspire others to know it’s OK to struggle.