Molly-Mae Hague has made a heartfelt admission to her fans, revealing that she's feeling 'deflated' ahead of her first Christmas since splitting from Tommy Fury. In a Christmas Eve vlog, the former Love Island star shared moments of herself and 23-month-old Bambi enjoying the festivities at Lapland UK.
However, while speaking to the camera, Molly-Mae confessed that the holiday season has been a struggle for her this year due to her personal life. She acknowledged that she hasn't felt like engaging with her YouTube channel lately, feeling 'mentally heavy' and not in the 'Christmas spirit', and admitted to being down.
Explaining her absence, she said: "I don't really know why - well I do know why actually. But I just have found the last few days quite challenging mentally and I have been quite down to be honest and I haven't felt like picking up my camera. And even if I had picked up my camera it would be like fake happiness and fake giddiness about Christmas and I would never come on and act a way that I'm not feeling. Hence why I'm coming on now and telling you that I have been feeling a little bit low."
She then shared: "It's so sad when people say that Christmas brings up emotions and for people it can be a really really sad time of the year and I feel like I've been so blessed in my life, I've never really felt that way at Christmas, it's always been a really positive time for me. But I feel like this is the first Christmas ever where I can really understand what people talk about when they talk about how it really makes you feel. Like when you've got things going on in your personal life it can really bring it all up and make it feel 10 times worse."
The influencer then admitted feeling 'guilty' because her family were with her for the holidays and she didn't think she was being the best 'host'. She continued: "I just didn't feel like I could really be present because I have a lot of stuff on my mind and I was just thinking about a lot and feeling quite sad. Gonna wake up with hopefully a more positive attitude tomorrow, and we go again," reports the Mirror.
Molly-Mae also apologised to her fans saying, "I'm sorry the start of this vlog has been a complete disaster, because the last few days have been a complete disaster really. Not to put a downer on Christmas, because I think Christmas is amazing and I'm so lucky to have my loved ones around me, but for obvious reasons, this year is feeling very sad. That's no one's fault, it's just a sad situation."
