[Intro]
Thought that I told you to keeping a secret wasn't hard
But I lied, I walk around every day afraid that I'm gonna slip up
Why didn't you tell me sooner?
Because you needed a friend, and so did I
You don't have to move away
You don't have to change your whole life, there's gotta be a way
No one even has to know we're friends
There's a lot of things that I can handle
But I could never live with myself if I betrayed you
This is that shit that plays in humble beginnings
We ain't got nothing but a pen and a pad and your feelings
Yeah, check it

[Verse 1]
My hеart's speeding against 3AM in the morning
Don't know if phobia's a vision
Once or twice a day, it's likе betting my money on today
Hoping for a good day, days getting better but what can I say?
How can y'all understand me if you just leave a comment?
You don't, I remember back when I was a teen
Now I'm past 18, reflecting how time was slow and what did it mean
And I enjoy my private humility, carrying my grandparents' agility
And I want to pay them back but I don't got the ability
Maybe they hold me back but I got my own disability
I feel like maybe I can get past all that
Be happy and face all that
God's by my side and I need all that
It makes all of my obstacles don't seem that bad
Anyone who knows me knew this song would come
Anyone who used to like me, I know I ain't dumb but
I hate my tone right now and I hate these drones
But they don't come back when this same shit hits them
You used to bring me hope like the way you used to do
When I only went to school just to see you
Now I feel like the tables have turned or the pages have changed
I want to be the man like you were to me
But I realize now how hard it was for you to help me
Just to hope that you enjoy the bitter truth
I know you prefer a sweeter truth and I'm gonna make it sweeter for you
I hate that I gain angry thoughts and that's what I do
But I hate me holding back at you
I feel like I'm the one lying even though I want to make amends
And I will always be afraid that I will offend
And I can't change that but at least you're my friend

[Verse 2]
Like my brother Aiden, my right hand man
My drowned out fan, don't know if you can but you tell me I can
It gives me courage and I want to be by your side
Play without you but you know where my heart lies
And I know things that you feel about me and I know that you're right
But I won't admit that you're right because I'm meant to be right
And the song's what it takes and the song that I'll write
And something I'll appreciate and go like damn that's right
And I hope we never fight because when I'm down you bring me the light
One day I hope you can both understand
One day I hope you both can understand
At the end of the day you both brothers, my brothers I'm growing quite fine
We all know each other well with a personal bond but I hope you both hear this and never respond
From me

[Verse 3]
And no matter where I am I know you by my side
Track's abstract but you know who you are
Relationships fell off and they didn't go far
We stayed through it all whether it was light or dark
I never speak about you because you are dear
You a mystery and that's not a fear
I'ma let the whole world know about you and once you appear
But I want to keep you safe and heard in the right ears and I
Wish all the haters can hear the song right now
And I wish I could give you all my time right now
Nightmares of you and I hope they can drown right now
So my heart can rise again and breathe somehow like
Cold hold me to show them how to rap while I'm rapping right now
And until I find the right legs like how and I
My head is racing like a Churchill Downs but that's not how I want to feel right now
And I'm going off and I ain't gonna stop right now
I don't need questions like how my spirit's just pushing I can't stop right now
And my spirit's just pushing I can't stop right now
And I just can't stop right now