Jocelyn Flores Lyrics
I know you so well, so well
I mean, I can do anything that he can
I've been pretty—
[Bridge: XXXTENTACION & Shiloh Dynasty]
I know you're somewhere, somewhere
I've been trapped in my mind, girl, just holding on
I don't wanna pretend we're something, we're nothing
I've been stuck thinking 'bout her, I can't hold on
(I've been pretty—)
[Verse: XXXTENTACION]
I'm in pain, wanna put ten shots in my brain
I've been trippin' 'bout some things, can't change
Suicidal, same time I'm tame
Picture this, in bed, get a phone call
Girl that you fucked with killed herself
That was this summer when nobody helped
And ever since then, man, I hate myself
Wanna fuckin' end it, pessimistic
All wanna see me with no pot to piss in
But niggas been excited 'bout the grave I'm diggin'
Havin' conversations 'bout my haste decisions
Fuckin' sickenin'; at the same time
Memories surface through the grapevine
'Bout my uncle playin' with a slip knot
Post-traumatic stress got me fucked up
Been fucked up since the couple months they had a nigga locked up
I'll be feelin' pain, I'll be feelin' pain just to hold on
And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb
I'll be feelin' pain, I'll be feelin' pain just to hold on
And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb
[Outro: Shiloh Dynasty]
I know you so well, I know you well
I mean, I can do anything
I can do he can
I've been pretty—
I know you so well
About
Jocelyn Flores was a friend of X who suffered from depression and committed suicide in May 2017, while staying with him in Florida for a photoshoot. He posted tweets about the situation, but they were later deleted. In an Instagram Live video, X detailed the events personally,
It was a devastating situation to deal with, it fucked me up so bad to where I wasn’t on social media for the last few days unless I was addressing something that I needed to. I never thought I would feel something for someone I barely knew that would fuck me up so bad just because I came from it
He previously dedicated the song “Revenge” to Jocelyn shortly after she died – he didn’t discuss her death on the track, although he wrote it in the song’s description on SoundCloud, “Rest in peace, Jocelyn, I will have my revenge upon the world.”
This song was performed over “im closing my eyes,” a potsu-produced song that samples the lyrics from Shiloh Dynasty’s “I Knew You So Well.” Two other tracks on 17 were also produced by potsu: “Everybody Dies In Their Nightmares” and “Carry On.”
On August 5, 2017, X uploaded a snippet of the song on his Snapchat story.
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He barely knew her, but her story spoke to him. About 6.9% of the American population suffers from depression (according to the National Institute of Mental Health). The story of someone suffering from depression, feeling hopeless, and committing suicide isn’t uncommon. Because her story spoke to him, X felt compelled to write this song about her.
On October 6, 2022, “Jocelyn Flores” was certified 8x multi-platinum by the RIAA.
- 1.vice city
- 2.NEVER
- 3.rare
- 4.FUXK
- 12.Look At Me!
- 14.YuNg BrAtZ
- 15.Jocelyn Flores
- 18.ALONE, PART 3
- 19.Moonlight
- 20.SAD!
- 21.changes
- 22.Hope
- 24.Train food
- 25.True Love