A Battle I Won With One Exercise

“Do you think with this face you will ever see yourself on the next level?”

“Why don’t you hold a broom & get busy in what looks good on you?”

“You have a poor choice of words when you speak around bunch of people.”

I was flooded with such remarks for a good long time and literally felt my confidence, self-esteem & morale dropping all down through my spine & shattering into pieces that I never expected will mend ever again.

I adopted silence and made an effort to utter as minimal words as I possibly could. Joining a gathering was a nightmare for me & I started seeking permission & validation for every minor task I was responsible to complete. This became my life 24/7,

at work & out of work. 

Then a dawn poured upon me! 

I entered a phase of internalizing of who I am as NOT what others see but what I BELIEVE in myself! I started a journey to discover who I really was & what I wanted to become. 

Even the mirror sometimes misguides you. So I started doing an exercise twice a day. First, when I used to wake up & remained in bed, I kept my eyes closed & spend few moments to recollect my feelings & align it with my thoughts. Let me repeat, feelings ❤️aligned with thoughts 🧠 

Those few moments were fuel to my determination & courage of how I want to see myself during the day. Shutting all doors & windows to disruptions that may contaminate my goals & detract my focus. 

It wasn’t easy, I was banged & pushed again & again for several weeks, probably months. I fell & did get hurt too!

But as Denzel Washington says,

I was lucky that I was falling forward!

Time flew and every night I repeated the same exercise with which I started my day. Before sleeping, my eyes remained closed & keeping all emotional noises away, I used to strive to align the feelings & thoughts of who I had succeeded in becoming each day. 

Let me admit this journey is still on. I make an effort to conduct this exercise often, if not daily. 

This exercise has done wonders for me!

It taught me perseverance & courage to continue walking on the path that I chose intentionally. It has brought me closer to my purpose every time I experienced a twist or turn in my life. 

Professionally, my career accelerated from an individual contributor to a team lead & managing key functions of Recruitment & Organizational Development in a renowned firm back home. 

Emotionally, there are bruises but I learned how to take care of them. My relations with those whom I love have strengthened & I am showered with blessings undoubtedly. 

Physically, I have changed though the numbers on the scale doesn’t show much difference!!! 

Let me confess, I am tightly holding the rope of perseverance because whenever I let it lose, I found myself falling prey to naysayers & narcissists. 

I will end my note with a quote:

“The greatest oak was once a little nut who held its ground.” - Anonymous 

Believe in Yourself

&

You Will Win All Battles

With Grit & Perseverance.

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