Healing To Release Grief Over Losing Your Mother

I wrote this when I was grieving the loss of my mother. I hope they can help you access your grief to.

I wail to the winds, to the women who have wailed before me, and to the women who wail still. I wail for my mother, and for the child she left behind. The child who has been crying for her mother’s arms for many years longer than she has been gone. The child who crumples in a heap and sobs despondently knowing that now, comfort will never come. I wail for them all. I wail and I feel the wailing of my ancestors, each wailing for their mothers, each longing for what they can no longer have. I take the grief inside me like a comforting darkness that bleeds into my soul and settles there. I know it will never leave again. It will stay with me as my mother could not. This grief is my blanket, my heart, my strength. It holds me when there is no one else to do so. The exquisite pain of loss that cannot be recovered. I surrender to its depths and ride it down into the darkness of my core. And in this space of darkness, in this center of my beingness, in this grieving and emptiness, I am whole in a way I have never been before.

I give thanks to the mother who taught me to channel my sadness and grief into words; who gave me this outlet to translate feelings into form. I grieve that we were not closer, could not be closer while she still breathed. I feel her sadness at the loss of me too.

A friend came over to hold me for a time. She said “hush my child for your mother loves you, hush my child for you are held, hush my child there are many who hold you in their hearts.” I heard my mother singing her lullaby to me once more “Hush little baby, don’t say a word, Mama’s gonna buy you a mocking bird…” I ask my friend if she knows the song. She says that it’s the one she was hearing in her head as she said those things to me and I feel my mother’s presence.

(Yes, that is a picture of my Mother and me. It was taken by my Grandfather.)

One more gift for you — here is a recording of a sound healing I did for healing grief. The more you listen to it, the more it helps. Sound Healing

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Kelle Sparta is a Transformational Shaman specializing in helping empaths build lives and businesses they can love. She is also the host of the popular Spirit Sherpa Podcast. If you are an empath and you’re having trouble separating yourself from other’s emotions, download her free Boundaries for Empaths program. You can find out more about Kelle at www.KelleSparta.com.