A Heart-To-Heart Before I Go on Vacation 🌸

As I write to you today, my heart is both heavy and light, filled with both joy and sadness. It's this complex web of emotions that I want to share with you before I take off for a well-deserved vacation.

It's been a whirlwind few years building this company, launching the Somatic Intelligence Wisdom Academy, creating new programs, growing my team to 10 people, and recently having to leave my home in Israel in 3 weeks as conflict exploded and landing in a country I didn’t know to start a new life.

At the beginning of 2024, I set my intention for the year: spaciousness. 

And yet I am barely breathing just sharing this.

I am happy and sad all the time. Joyful for the life I’m living and in grief for my country, my family, and my friends. 

There is nothing I can do to change this. I just have to sit with this feeling of helplessness, be with it, accept it, and move through it day after day. 

There's been immense beauty mixed in with the chaos. I've found such comfort in the feminine energy of Portugal, where every corner feels like a warm embrace. Dancing Kizomba, practicing Pilates for dancers, and connecting with amazing new friends have been my sources of strength and joy.

My life here is “una vida de miel,” as they say in Spanish–a life of honey.

(The only downside is that I traded the Mediterranean Sea for the freezing waters of the Atlantic. Well, you can’t have it all! 😅)

Yet, even in this paradise, I find myself grappling with the weight of the world. My heart aches for my homeland, where the recent collective trauma is so deep. My heart is constantly heavy for my family, my friends, my people. I feel grief and pain nonstop. It's a feeling of helplessness that I carry with me that’s never-ending. 

And so, as I prepare to go on vacation for some much-needed self-care and rejuvenation, I can't help but reflect on the importance of emotional resilience. It's something I've had to cultivate over the years, not just for myself but for all of you.

Being a somatic coach isn't just about guiding others through their healing journey. 

It's about holding space for my clients in their most difficult moments. It's about offering light, spaciousness and a sacred space when you need it most. 

To be able to hold this space, I must pay attention to and care for my own energy and emotional capacity. 

So, I get witnessed every couple of weeks–sharing my vulnerabilities, everything that is weighing heavy on my heart, with those who have the space for me. I get massages, I do Pilates and Kizomba dance classes, and I spend time doing what I love with the people I love.

And then there's just making room for me to feel it all. Every pain, fear, hope, joy, and anxiety. Naming the emotions, being able to accept and be with the grief and helplessness, and not running from them. I must create space to let myself feel the heaviness and connect with the spiritual. 

It's a practice of self-love and self-care that I've learned to prioritize. If I want to show up for myself, for my clients, and for the people I care about, I have to resource myself - to replenish my own cup.

Early in March, during the Embodied Femininity Live Challenge, I had to make a tough call. With three clients scheduled back-to-back the day after the challenge ended, I realized that I couldn't give them my best. So, I made the decision to reschedule.

It's moments like these that remind me of the importance of listening to my body, honouring my energy, and responding with compassion to my inner needs. Because my clients deserve nothing less than my full presence and attention.

Whether it's through dance, Pilates, or simply sitting with my emotions in meditation, I'm committed to staying grounded and resilient, for myself and for you.

So, as I share this piece of my soul with you, know that I hold each of you in my heart. And when I return from my quality time of recharging (and loads of fun), I'll be ready to continue this journey with you all with renewed energy and purpose. 💗

P.S. I’m dropping something BIG for you next week in honour of Mental Health Awareness Month. Mental health and well-being are very close to my heart considering my humble beginning. So I’m doing something special I’ve never done before to make mental health accessible to all of you. Keep an eye on your inbox for next Monday’s newsletter for the big announcement ✨💕