I Love and Approve of Myself.

In a recent post, I introduced Kyoko Ganaha of YUTA, one of the characters in "The Holy Spirit in Ultramarine". She is a woman who prays in the ocean in Okinawa. She brings Sayaka Yuki to the "A Course In Miracles" study group organized by Yukiko Shimada.

So today, let me introduce Sayaka Yuki. She is a temporary worker in a food factory.

After quitting my job as a film screening organizer in 2016 and starting a major revision of the script for "The Holy Spirit in Ultramarine" in June 2017, I became a temporary worker and worked at several food factories in order to earn an income. For some reason, I was even given the job of inventory control in the freezer, a job that should have been done by a permanent staff. Like many people who embark on a spiritual path, I was too dedicated and had a propensity to give much at the expense of myself. That is why I was so appreciated in every factory I worked in. An example. I arrived at work before the permanent staffs came in, got everything out of the freezer that needed to be set up, and was even ready to start working on the line at exactly 9:00 a.m. I did not even have to be asked. Even though I was not asked to do so. But I was looking for a "thank you". For me, who had difficulty recognizing my own worth, "thank you" was a word worthy of the "Water of Life". I worked devotedly to hear it. I knew it was not a good thing, but I worked that way, and now I have unburdened myself of that heavy burden.

This was reflected in the character of Sayaka Yuki. She has a habit of frequently saying "This suck! The worst!" She always falls in love with a boring guy and gets hurt. Every day, she works on the line at a food factory until she is exhausted. To see what happened to Sayaka Yuki at the "A Course In Miracles" study group, check out the post that introduced Kyoko Ganaha.

Sayaka Yuki then worked on the healing work introduced in Louise L. Hay's book "You Can Heal Your Life". In this healing work, she says to herself in the mirror, "I love you, I really, really love you". She starts it on the advice of an acquaintance, but saying it causes her unusual suffering.

Kyoko Ganaha spoke about that challenge of Sayaka at the "A Course In Miracles" study group.

Now, the main character of "The Holy Spirit in Ultramarine" is Mari Hosono, a chalk artist.

Mari later begins one of her own challenges, inspired by Sayaka's challenge, to love her own body. She was raped by her classmates while attending a private art college in Tokyo, so she dropped out of college and returned to her parents' house in Kobe, where she spent several years holed up in her room. Mari took anti-anxiety medication day after day and repeatedly committed suicide by wrist cutting. She felt her body was tainted and she hated her body. As Mari continued her study of "A Course In Miracles", she began to see, in theory, that the "meaning" and "evaluation" she was giving her body was causing her to suffer.

Once, she had dreamed of becoming an oil painter, admiring Diego Velázquez. However, all of her oil painting tools are now stored away in a closet, asleep. Mari calls Yukiko Shimada and rents a tatami-mat-covered rental space on the second floor of "CHOPPED TOMATO PURĒE", a spiritual community salon she runs.

Using several large, mobile mirrors for a recently launched "Belly Dance Course", Mari sets up a space surrounded by mirrors on all sides and begins the challenge of taking off all her clothes and begins the challenge of painting a nude painting of herself in oil.

The title of Mari Hosono's nude self-portrait is "I Love and Approve of Myself."

Do you think it's okay to reveal such an important plot?

"The Holy Spirit in Ultramarine" is a three-part, awfully long story. And I will revise it in four parts soon. So, no one knows the full extent of my "The Holy Spirit in Ultramarine" when I reveal this level of idea.