I want you to know a secret...

I've had an email list of nearly 1000 subscribers for years, but I'm scared to send them emails. There's a part of me that believes people don't want to be bothered with another email - especially if the theme of the newsletter isn't consistent.

This part of me tries to encourage me to "work harder" and "perfect" the message into a "brand" before hitting send for the first time. It says, "You're almost there, but you still don't make any sense".

But I have A LOT to say!

Sometimes so much to share that there's a traffic jam of words.

This is a fairly common thing for neurodivergent folx. I didn't know that until recently. Like many, the pandemic gave me time to slow down and more deeply understand myself.

I'm so different than who I thought I was!

Noticing the contradicting parts of me has been part of my life since I can remember, but this was a whole new level. Turns out there was a deeper identity underneath my striving, anxiety, and extroversion. As I got more curious about memories from decades ago, the younger "me" that experienced something scary or cruel was able to tell me more. Add some genuine self-compassion, and that memory softened into basic images instead of core wounds.

My relationship with the world has profoundly changed.

My relationship with ALL of me changed!

When those little "me" from memory after memory were able to tell their whole story, they were able to let it go. Instead of hurting and flooding me with fear, shame, or anger, they were able to give me the most important gifts I could ever imagine.

Playfulness.

Joy.

Open-heartedness.

And the clarity and confidence to allow myself to be seen - really seen, not just a curly girl on a stage.

I'd like to invite you to journey with me as I try to share distilled ideas and stories - It'll include intimate personal experiences and the wisdom I've gained from others along the way.

I admit I'm a little weird. I'm a neurodivergent, mix-gendered person. I like the mechanics of the human experience which means I'll share important details many people toss aside. Imagine getting the right nuance or context that can shift everything into focus! If you've ever been told to "stop overthinking" or felt that you couldn't "just be yourself" around family and friends, you'll find real treasures here.

Welcome to the Work That Fulfills newsletter! Without doing the inner work, life can just seem like a series of WTFs.

Let's be friends.