Learning to Let Go

I’m not good at letting go. I find it difficult to leave things, relationships and people behind. I’ve had a hard time with the grief of losing my loved ones.

How does someone let go of the person who was their strength and encouragement?

I struggle to wake up in the morning sometimes thinking I can no more hug my grandma. I bitterly miss her presence in my life. I’m an ambivert by nature, I don’t like too many people. I’ve a small network of close family and friends. And it makes it even more difficult for me to let go. I need vulnerability, sensitivity and respect to open up to someone. And when I do, I really cherish and respect that relationship in my life.

I’m bad at leaving, letting go of the past. Somehow in my brain, nothing ever leaves. I remember every word, action, good or bad. I try to make peace with the bad and cherish the good memories. I’m healing, and growing everyday.

But how do you really let go? Do you not miss your loved ones, how do you erase their memories, how do you live with their absence. I know this is all triggering, but life in itself is triggering everyday. Every loss, harsh word and cruelty breaks us in someway.

I think it’s okay to break sometimes and feel deeply. Because when we break, we learn how to pick up our broken pieces and smile again. I feel a broken person is better than a person who is stoic, who doesn’t feel pain. Pain is a reminder that we are alive, that we need love, and care. And when new love enters in the form of family and friends, we can do better and be more grateful because we have experienced brokenness in the past.

I know being emotional is not seen as a strength, but don’t we all really crave someone to emotionally connect. Someone who would love, and understand us. The modus operandi of this blog is to break you a little. Make you feel a little more, experience and embrace pain. And also to show up with a broken heart, to live again and pick up someone who is struggling.

Let’s do better, be better at handling grief. Not by ignoring but by accepting, embracing its very presence in our day to day life. Like love, pain is a part of life. Embrace it and live freely. Don’t be angry when you experience difficult emotions, feel your emotions, write it down, cry over it and speak about it.

The more you face difficult emotions, the more clarity you will find in your life. It will make you more resilient and give you the courage to face life with confidence. I’m also struggling with letting go of the past, but I’m not ashamed of it. It means I have a loving heart.

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