Let your anxiety drive you … not “brake” you

I’ve let anxiety break me. Many times. Primarily because I’ve treated anxiety as a brake.

Not just a brake. An emergency brake.

And not just an emergency brake. More like a tire boot.

Time and time again, I’ve allowed anxiety to stop me dead in my tracks. Stall my progress. I’ve stewed in the same ditch for hours, and even days, without calling for AAA.

And it’s not just me.

Almost 20% of the American population suffers from anxiety disorders.

And although anxiety disorders are “highly treatable,” only about 1/3 of those suffering from anxiety actually receive treatment.

Why is that?

Because it’s INCREDIBLY anxiety-inducing to even talk about anxiety with others. Let alone to confront it, for yourself, before the ensuing conversation inevitably spirals out of control.

I’ve been there. I suffered severely from social anxiety disorder for 12 years. I overcame it just a few years ago. It still rears its ugly head every now and again, but instead of invading my thoughts for minutes or hours on end, it leaves almost as quickly as it arrives. In fact, I use its fear, and its corresponding energy, as a source of inspiration to get over my own insecurities and to meet a new person or experience a new environment.

On the other hand, I’ve been suffering from OCD for 10 years. It continues to overwhelm me, day after day. I haven’t yet hit the breaking point that I previously hit with social anxiety.

Notice what I wrote: “I’ve been suffering from OCD for 10 years.” Also note what I wrote in the paragraph prior: “I suffered severely from social anxiety disorder for 12 years.”

For me, social anxiety is a thing of the past. It stays with me in the present, and will most likely continue with me into the future, but I no longer suffer from it. I use it to fuel my interactions and to overcome my self-doubts.

I can’t say the same for my OCD. From the obsessive thoughts, to consequent compulsions, I can’t seem to psychologically disassociate from OCD as I did from social anxiety.

I’ve converted social anxiety into gasoline that fuels my networking and my personal relationships. It’s no longer a brake. Or an emergency brake. Or worse, a tire boot.

OCD is still a brake for me. BUT … and it’s a big but … I do claim it as “my” OCD. I’m accountable for it, and I own it.

And with this ownership comes responsibility. Responsibility drives decisions, and decisions fuel the outcome.

So now I’m working to reorient my OCD as the fuel that drives my professional and personal pursuits.

The fuel is comprised of decisions that are formed by thoughts and by reactions to the external environment. And for me, it’s most important to IGNORE almost all of my reactive thoughts and to be more intentional with the thoughts that I allocate time and effort towards. It is MY responsibility to dictate which thoughts I focus on, since they will dictate decisions and outcomes in my life (and in the lives of others!).

Everyone’s experience with anxiety is different. I’m not you, and you’re not me. I can’t say what will work for you, and I certainly can’t recommend a solution that totally erases anxiety from your headspace. It may never go away. It hasn’t for me, and that’s not a bad thing. It’s a thing I use to fuel me instead of derail me – and it’s the same choice that YOU can make too.

I want to leave you with this:

Whatever it is you “suffer” from … or whatever it is that you’re “going through” … use it to fuel you. To drive you.

It’s easy to let things break you down. And to let them put a brake on your life, ultimately leading to overwhelm, fatigue, and hopelessness.

Whether it’s talking, or meditating, or pursuing a different daily routine (or a myriad of other alternatives) … DO something to put your brake into gear. Even if it’s a low gear … ANYTHING is an improvement from stalling out. Even if you regress instead of progress at the onset. After all, don’t you have to reverse to get out of your parking spot? Sometimes we must go backwards in order to go forward. All I know is … you’re not going anywhere if you stay in your head, refuse to take action, and let your car stay in park. Get OUT of your parking spot and MOVE :)

You control your gear stick. Even when thoughts weigh you down and seem to control you, you ALWAYS have the ability to shift from park to drive.

You just need to move your hand to shift the stick. You need to turn thought into fuel (decisions), and use your fuel to keep moving. Most importantly, you need to make the FIRST move and get that car in motion. Forwards, backwards, or sideways (for the car of the future) … JUST GET IT IN MOTION!

To resist the commotion in your brain, do whatever it takes to make some motion in your life. Less motion in your head, and more motion in the real world. Not the distorted world you’ve created within your mind, but the real world that houses your work, your play, and your relationships.

It’s up to you. There’s no singular vehicle, roadmap, or highway that will get you to where you want to be. But you’ll always need a steering wheel and gasoline to get you to your desired location. Your steering wheel is your discretion, and your fuel is the decisions that result from your thoughts and reactions.

What are you thinking about today, how are you discerning your thoughts, and when will you convert inaction into action?

If you’re comfortable, please share your anxiety story in the comments below. I’d love for us to connect and to lift each other up!

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