A Ray of Hope

Hope is an antidote of survival. Smile is an antidote of happiness. Keep your hope, don't go down, you will find an opportunity that will boost your energy to live your life better than today, what you are living?

All living entities live their life with hope. A person sleeps at night and wake up next day with a hope to finish the day with happiness while accumulating things for his daily and future life. Without a hope, it is very difficult to survive even if you are inspired. Patience will give you a hope.

I am writing about a part of my life to tell you about hope. It's been long time where I am waiting for A Ray Of Hope. Few years down the line, I was in my job in a very well recognized Global MNC. During those days I had some of my personal life issues. I was never allowed my personal life issues to come in my professional life. Though I had my personal life issues, I was able to deliver my deliverables successfully to the stakeholders either it is internal or external before committed timeline. Many times got appreciations from my stakeholders. I always keep my personal life & professional life separate; means I will never merge my personal life with professional life. I was living my life with issues in personal life, I never gave up in my professional life, and I was continuing doing the same, getting appreciation from my stakeholders. Parallel I was trying to fix my personal life issue with a slow and steady pace. Personal Life issues take time to get fix. Sometimes it is quicker and sometimes it takes longer time. My personal life issue was bit complex, I was giving time for everything to get cool down, so that I can fix it easily. A time came, when I am able to see clearly someone has merged my personal life with professional life. Naturally or unnaturally a bad time came where I have to take a break from my job. I took a break from my job to maintain ethics of my professional life and decorum of the office. My intention was not to take a break, but I was forced to take a break by some unknown human force because I had the capabilities to work under pressure. These capabilities I had within me from my school days, a blessing. Though my financial situation was not that great to take a break, at that time, I had just cleared all my financial backlogs includes Personal Loans (for my sisters marriage, my marriage and few other personal home needs), Credit Card loans and Loans from friends.

I am a kind of person who always fulfill his personal or professional life commitments without any failure. Many told me about Positive Mindset, Patience, and many more things. At that time, I was curious to understand what all these things are happening around me? Wherever, I go I see some kind of activities, some are positive, some are negative. Some said this all are happening because God wants. Some said, someone has done Jaadu Tona, Tantra, black magic and many more. I knew Myself very well, I ignored all their talks. I went for a solo vacation to surrender myself to nature, rejuvenate, refresh myself. During my last days of the trip, I thought of applying Job. I started preparing my resume, refreshing my knowledge, my experience while on the vacation. Unfortunately, COVID-19 started, Lockdown started, I was locked in GOA, I can't do anything. I applied very few jobs, did not get any call. My first & foremost think during Lockdown was to survive, local people helped me to get my daily needs, I stayed there till the lockdown was called off and vehicle movement started. After Lockdown I was back to Bangalore. Quarantined for 14 days and continued. Though things were not normal still then I had to move, to & fro from Karnataka (Bangalore) to my native, Odisha (Keonjhar Sadar, Bangore) because of my aunt's health issue, she was bed-ridden. I do call her mother (in our language mother is MAA). As the time was passing her health was getting more deteriorated and she passed away, left her body behind us on March 28, 2021. This was a sad moment in our family, though things were not that good in our family and again things were worst around me as well because of no job and financial expenditure I had to go through.

During this period, I encashed all my securities, mutual funds and savings. I started using cash with alerts and watching all my expenditure thoroughly. Though so many things happened around, I was still with patience and positive mindset "I will get a nice opportunity once I start searching in one of the Global MNCs". During this time, I do hard some health issues, I was taking medication. So many things went wrong, naturally or unnaturally with me in few months, this tried to make me weak physically, emotionally, mentally and I was already weak in my financial status. I never thought any negative even though I was getting irritation because of physical pain, mental pain because of health issue and also financially down. I kept a Strong, Positive mindset with a hope. I will recover from this situation very soon. I updated my resume, added my experiences and certifications to my existing resume and started applying for jobs, on the month of October/November 2021, also forwarded to my well-wisher, my old colleagues, my friends and my previous companies managers, directors, known people while continuing applying on job portals like LinkedIn, Naukri.com, Monster now it is foundit , Indeed, PowerToFly, company's own website and some more job portals.

I always had a dream to work in a Global MNCs and that's how I was going in my career till the time I took a break. From October/November 2021 till today August 31, 2024 I am applying for a permanent Job in Global MNC's not a single interview call, on my applied jobs. Having around 17 years of experience where the experience speaks, here in my case, my profile is not getting shortlisted. Each and every time I will get a reply for my applied jobs similar to the below message:

"We’re following up on your application for the Senior Manager, Software Development at ********. We want to thank you for your interest in a position at ********. After careful consideration, we will not be moving your application forward in the process. Please know that competition for the position was very strong, and we had to make difficult choices among an exceptional group of candidates. As we continue to grow, we’re always seeking new talent across our business and hope you’ll consider applying again. Please stay engaged on our Careers Site and LinkedIn for future opportunities. We wish you the best of luck in your job search!"

The saddest part of my life is even though the job description matches 100% with my resume or my profile, it won't get shortlisted. What to think about 50% or more match. Again, another pathetic point is - I have applied for jobs in more the 200 companies, after 200 I stopped counting. In this pathetic situation one interesting thing is I have applied for multiple times in more than 150 companies, in some companies it is more than 10 times, still then no positive response. I do have also applied for career comeback senior positions in some companies still waiting for a response. Now, I have to survive my life with loans from few of friends as I don't have any more savings or funds. I thought publishing the company names I have applied, but my mind said "NO, leave it. Keep Applying, you will get a very nice opportunity, very soon".

In the year 2022, NPCI gave me a consulting opportunity for some months to hire and create technical teams. Integra Micro Software Service gave me a short-term opportunity in their organization to streamline their development process and deliver the deliverables to the customer. That was a very short-term contract after delivering the deliverables, I need to leave. Still then I never stopped, applying for a permanent job in a Global MNCs. I earned some money for my survival from both of them. Got, a bit of relaxed from financial stress for few months. In current days, we all have few needs apart from our daily expenditures that comes by default every year, that we need to pay our health care insurance, term insurance premiums. Somehow, I managed last year not sure about this year & future.

You know, when I said that "I have applied for jobs in more than 200 companies and that too applied multiple times in some companies, not a single shortlist". After hearing this, few said, someone has done black magic. Though I don't believe all these from my Diploma college days. But I do listen these stories when people say about the black magic, spirits, ghosts and more of similar type, I do watch movies of black magic, horror shows. This kind of shows, shows the creativity mind of teller or writer. Watching movies, listening stories don't give the impression that you believe these all odds. What will do black magic if things are human curated because of some reason?

I just narrated lesser pain (physical, emotional, mental, financial pain) part of my life I have gone through in last few years. I can't explain the pain or issues in details that I had. Sometime the pain creator or givers needs to understand the pain they have given and the boundary to stop. Similarly, the same goes to human curated act, they should understand the pain and the boundary to stop. Though I have these pains in my life I still keep smiling. You know from my Diploma college time onwards I have to go through financial issues, I never said it to anyone anything, I keep it with me and live my life. Rarely someone will be knowing about my issues in my life in details, may be very few that too a lesser part of it. I stay always positive even though I have issues. Having a strong positive mindset is good, sometimes it kills, because of, too much of positivity.

The person who regularly retrospect from his life, he learns a lot about himself, about the good and bad. Again, if he also learns from others life experiences, he gets matured in his young age, his understanding, his thought process and the way he looks to life will be different than others.

I am still positive and waiting for A Ray Of Hope that will release some of my stress. Expecting A Ray Of Hope will come to me as a nice job opportunity. You know my personal life issue, I do also have A Ray Of Hope there but I can't do much. Simply I need to follow my commitment of personal life. If nature permits, my commitment will show me the path of resolution. I need to live my life, go ahead in my life with a smile both in heart & face. Anyway, my face always smiles.

From my life experience I should tell you don't get biased in your personal life as well as in your professional life. Few tried to bias me in my personal life, in some decisions. I am still standing tall with my personal life commitments. Similarly, in my professional life, I am looking for an appropriate opportunity from a Global MNC, to start delivering my commitments towards the organization and its goal. I can say as much as possible try to be a Person of Principle (The Man of Principles). Now a days it is very difficult to find a Man of Principles. Follow & keep your commitments. Everything will come to place without any headache if you follow the path of truth & honesty. People can play around you with lies but your truth will help you to survive, will give you energy, it will remind you that you have not done anything wrong. why you are worried or afraid?

At the end - Patience gives you strength for the hope. Hope is like water droplets to a thirsty person or to any thirsty living entities. Hope is a life saver. Hope tells us "Don't worry things will get better sooner".

I had read many books. You will find many books talking about mindset, either you read from spiritual books or non-spirituals all of them will point to create "Strong Positive Mindset" while following the path of truth. This "Strong Positive Mindset" will help you to survive in many odds. I read our religious, spiritual book called "Srimad Bhagavatam". In Canto 1, some of last chapters explains about current generation, I was amazed after reading it. According to authentic bodies "Srimad Bhagavatam" was written thousands of years ago, people of that time are so futuristic in their thought process, they are able to narrate the current generation and things happening in the current generation. All religions, spiritual books talk about Strong Positive Mindset as well as about humanity. Follow humanity wherever you go. Support all living entities wherever you go.

It's you who has to decide what is good and bad in your life? what kind of boundaries you are going to create in your life? How are you going to live your life? Good and Bad definition varies from person to person. Carefully choose things in your personal life don't get biased. Patience will give you Hope. Make yourself stronger, have a strong positive mindset, it will help you to survive.

Thank you for reading till the end.

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