SCARS IN THE MIRROR

What Really Shapes Who We Are As A Person

Often deep pain or trauma shapes who we are and who we will become in the future. In October of 1983 I was traumatized to see the aftermath of the Marine Corps Barracks bombing in Beirut that killed 241 US service personnel. For whatever reason I would never be the same after that. Those images forever burned in the recesses of my mind would drive me into a career in the fire service.

If we look back and are honest with ourselves, we can say that some of the most prolific changes in our lives have come from our scars. Without the deep motivations stemming from pain, I would have never accomplished what I have in my life. On September 15th 2001 I arrived at the remnants of what use to be the Twin Towers. As soon as the pile came into view I knew I had made a grave mistake in coming. Why you ask? I would never be able to un-see or un-smell the things I witnessed. I would be permanently emotionally scarred. In my dreams, from that day forward I would hear the screams of more than 3000 Americans from down beneath a mountain of steel. The trauma from my time spent at the world trade center drove me to a second career in Antiterrorism and Homeland Security. I was hell bent on doing everything I could to prevent the next terrorist attack in our country. I have never felt more a true Patriot for our country, nor have I ever been more fulfilled in my career than when I was defending our nation from terrorists. I'm still doing it today. This change occurred because of scars.

The eyes are the windows to the heart. When we look in the mirror, no one else sees what we see. You know the full story of your life. You can see the emotional scars that lye hidden and the physical scars that stare back at you. Each one is a story of your life and has shaped who you are today. You need to embrace that pain and admit that some good things have come from it. Of course no one likes to go through it when it is happening. But when it is over and the healing begins, great things often follow.

In September of 2015, I was brutally mauled by a 600 lbs. Alaskan Grizzly. With my throat ripped out and bleeding profusely, I started on a journey I would not soon forget. A very traumatic event would once again forever change me. Mixed within the blood and pain was an overwhelming feeling that I would never make it out of Alaska alive. I was wrong but my mind was forever scarred. I now look in the mirror each morning at deep physical scars. They stare back at me. I have sections of my face that are numb and I can't feel. Sometimes I can still see those coal black eyes staring into mine just before sinking its teeth into my face.

Let’s be brutally honest hear; Men are great at polishing the outside with accomplishments, but not so good when it comes to who they are on the inside or matters of the heart. Like most men I spent a life time trying to prove to the world I was worthy to be called a man. My accomplishments and achievements were all that really mattered to me. I gave my wife, kids, family and God the left-overs. I never invested deeply in what really mattered and what brought real purpose in life. It is the deep intimate relationships with loved ones and God that establishes the foundation of true happiness and purpose in life. As I was stumbling across that bloodied field looking for a place to just lay down and die....you begin to take an inventory of your life. As I laid there clutching my throat, a grim reality came over me. It was not a decorated career in the fire service, nor being a helicopter rescue pilot, nor being a homeland security manager for the City of San Diego, or any other achievement in my life that meant anything when I thought I was dying. None of those things meant anything, nor did I spend more than two seconds thinking about them. What really mattered was me doing everything in my power to crawl myself back into the arms of my wife and my kids. To hold them in my arms again and never let a day go by without telling them I love them was all I could think of. The only way to live life is to "Live Like You Were Dying". This brings everything into perspective.

Greg Matthews

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