Story of Fear

This dog gave me the biggest scare of my life.

On February 6th, Mama Emily rushed to the bathroom and said, “Ehm, Ace’s eye popped out.”

All I could say was, “What?”

My heart started pounding.

I called Ebarle Vellmore and told him, “Go check on Ace, see what Mama is talking about.”

He came back and said, “Ate Ehm, I’m taking Ace to the hospital.”

I asked, “Why? What happened?”

He replied, “Ate Ehm... it’s serious. I’ll take him now.”

I called my partner and only said, “Hubs, it’s Ace.”

As I said it, fear crept in.

So much fear. So much anxiety.

You know that feeling when your world suddenly shrinks?

Like you can’t breathe because of the fear.

I was in an air-conditioned room but sweating profusely. Really sweaty.

My heart was racing, my mind spinning with all the worst-case scenarios.

I didn’t know what to do.

There was a shiver running through my veins—so much fear, so much anxiety.

That same day, I had just returned from John Pagulayan and Caroline Pagulayan’s house, where we talked for hours, and I felt motivated to move forward.

I was feeling so positive, and then this happened. It was such a quick challenge.

A challenge from the universe to see if I could apply what I learned from John.

It was like the universe was testing me to see if I could stay strong and focused amidst the chaos.

I think I passed, but I felt numb.

So many emotions inside, but no tears, no words.

It felt like my body was in shock, trying to process everything all at once.

Then V called and said Ace needed an immediate operation.

My heart sank. I said, “Okay, ask for an estimate. I’ll prepare the money. Just let them do whatever it takes to save him. Even if he goes blind, as long as he’s not in pain and he survives.”

That’s when I knew money is a tool for emergencies like this.

Before, I worried about money, but it’s different when a life is at stake.

Suddenly, my mind was clear. It wasn’t about the money anymore but about having options and peace of mind.

I was thinking to myself, “It’s okay. You’re doing everything in your power so that everything will be okay.”

I kept repeating this to myself, trying to calm my racing thoughts.

Then I updated my family and friends about Ace until one of my best friends called me.

I didn’t know what happened; Dina Escurel was telling a story about her cousin and his dog until I burst out and cried. 😢

A cry that I had been holding for months and months. With so much anxiety and stress, I couldn’t cry.

That blew me away. It felt like a dam breaking, all the pent-up emotions flooding out.

Luckily, my baby boy survived, and it seems like nothing happened to him. He is as healthy and bright as ever! 🌟

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Acey, my love, I am so proud of you, brave little one. You taught me the true meaning of resilience and courage.

Can you believe it? You’re 9 years old today and still look like a puppy! 😁

I love you. Thank you for loving me with all your doggie heart. 🐶 You are my comfort, my source of joy. 💙

Please, don’t be noisy in the morning! 😅

PS: Until now, I still can’t look at the photo of his eye popping out. I just can’t. I’m just glad he survived.

PPS: Like mother, like son, we both have disabilities now; we should both have discount cards! 😂