What does resilience mean to you?

I'm going to share something deeply personal here, so if you happen to read this, please do so with kindness, compassion and consider how my words reflect your own experience & what you can learn about yourself.

Resilience has been on my mind and I shared this with our Heart Centred Leaders community.

I would assume that to most of us, resilience refers to our ability to bounce back from adversity.

I feel like I have done this so many times in my life and thinking about all those moments feels exhausting. However, I take pride and gratitude from coming through all those difficult moments, because they shaped the person I am today.

One way or another, we have all faced adversity, especially in recent weeks and months. The degree of adversity and the affect it has will vary based on our individual experiences.

As we consider what a post-COVID world can look like, our resilience plays a crucial role. Not just in helping us to bounce back, but also in connecting us with insight into WHERE we want to bounce back to....

Do you want to bounce back to the same place?

Or somewhere better?

This month team Mindful Talent are running a series of online workshops around the theme of resilience.

The first two have been immensely powerful, emotional, inspiring and energising.

Most recently we considered how do you cultivate resilience?

Here are some thoughts that emerged…

• Willingness - Resilience builds strength, so a willingness to keep flexing that muscle helps you become anti-fragile. Through willing to be kind to yourself, to ask for help, to keep going, to embrace how you feel, how & who you are.
• Perspective - Through self-enquiry, opening yourself up, particularly when you feel stuck, to new perspectives through asking yourself different questions. For example “why is this happening FOR me?”, instead of “to me”. Recognise "life is happening for me."
• Understanding – By building the book of evidence that we are a survivor, we know we can push through one more time. Life is one continuous classroom. Embracing this allows us to blossom every day.

When I consider where I want to bounce back to, the first thing that comes to mind is another question...

What am I doing now, that I wasn't doing pre-lockdown, that I want to keep doing?

My immediate answer is personal - Having lunch every day with my wife and girls has been a blessing in this unique period of time and something I will miss as we move out of lockdown.

So I am now considering what can we do differently as a family so I don't miss that time to connect.

Because what I really don't want you to know about me is I fear being successful. I fear the work that I perceive is required to achieve success, will stop/prevent me from being present and showing up for my children. 

My Dad was in the RAF. The nature of his job meant he was often not present for me and my sisters, literally being away for periods of 6 months where the only contact we had was through “Blueys”, letters that we would write to one another. 

That was OK. That was our normal.

That was until May 1994.

Prior to that life was rosey. We had a wonderful life growing up. We didn't have much money, but we had so much connection through fun and memorable modest experiences with friends and family. I had not experienced anything "bad" up until that point.

So when my parents sat myself and my sisters down, told us that they were separating, we were moving from Germany to Scotland (somewhere we'd never even visited) and we had to choose who to live with and could not have been a bigger shock! We literally had no clue this bomb was dropping!

Every aspect of our lives was about to change.

My deepest pain in life stems from the breakdown of our family unit and then “losing” my parents and my sisters in years to come. They are all alive, but we haven’t spoken in years and I am completely OK with that, now. 

I carried the guilt of picking my Dad over my Mum with me for 26 years.

Over that period of time there have been dark days where I've felt alone, not known what to do next and experienced suicidal thoughts (but never acted on them).

However, I am so grateful for the lessons I learned from the experiences with my parents.

Through this pain I learned that everything is temporary, the good AND the bad - Enjoy the good while it lasts, but don't dwell on the bad.

I learned that we always have a choice and there will always be someone there to help us if we are willing to ask.

I learned that the bare minimum you should do in life, particularly as a parent, is show up and be present! I've lost count of the times when I've shown up to something that I really couldn't be bothered doing only to have an incredible insight or experience!

This drives me in what I want to create. 

I want to create a life that enables me to serve and connect with myself, so I can better serve and connect with the people I care about and the people I want to work with. 

I want to be great - a great coach, father, husband, leader and friend. I’m just not sure how to balance all that, show up and consistently be my best in all those roles. Especially between my “work” and my family. 

I want to create a big difference in the world. 

I LOVE coaching! It's the best "work" I’ve ever done in my life! 

More than that, I love the gift that coaching has given me to profoundly impact other peoples lives and in turn, profoundly impact my own life and the lives of the people I care about the most - my family. 

I can honestly say that if retirement was never an option for me, I could do the work I am now doing forever.

I now have an immense sense of purpose.

So I will figure it out.

Because my experience tells me that I can do it.

And when life knocks me down again, I know I will get back up.

Because I LOVE what I do, I have the love of incredible people around me, I'm willing to ask for help, I can always find another option, I understand I can push through one more time and bounce back to a better place.

I am resilient.

And so are you x

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