What happened in my life the last 6 months?

Since July 13th 2019 what is the same and what has changed in my life? I wrote this on my birthday that day and this has not changed:

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..."B.M.S. When I came into this life I had no control, no choices nor understanding. I was taught by and I learned over the years about my spiritual, familial and community roots: (Psalm 139)

1) Bible Must Speak - Was here long before I was

2) Birth Must Speak - No control where I showed up.

3) Brian Must Speak / An ethnicity and name given to me I did not ask for it.

My life has been established by God for 61 years.

God is very consistent as today I get to begin another year"...

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From July 14th till Feb 1st, 2020 in snippet into the last 6 months.

What transpired in these areas of my life that others were the benefactors?

1) Bible Must Speak - Transform your walk with God by changing how you listen to him and speak more honest, open, genuine and real.

Your Proper Role in the Body of Christ

Romans 12:3

God has given me the grace to speak a warning about pride. I would ask each of you to be emptied of self-promotion and not create a false image of your importance. Instead, honestly assess your worth by using your God-given faith as the standard of measurement, and then you will see your true value with an appropriate self-esteem

God spoke to my heart and answered my prayer for another way to be compensated and bring spiritual stamina and appropriate structure to my life after 10 years of not working for others and not having the structure of a disciplined life

I was sent to MV Transportation to begin healing from the pain of realizing I need spiritual discipline and structure to show up in how I was living.

..."Start moving in the direction of getting emptied of self-promotion"... and that I can not continue driving for and paying for maintenance, repairs, insurance, car loan, city and county and other fees for running your business and losing revenue for the last 6 years.

Promoting my ideologies and not God's ideologies does not work in helping others. It rules out others because I took up all my time working 7 days a week.

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2) Birth Must Speak - No control where I showed up. July 14th through Feb 1st 2020

Since July 13th, 2019 I have no idea every day where I am going to drive and I live and I love that. I do not mind whether I go north, south, east or west. (Living to connect and engage with others every day comfortability is my dream)

(Unless someone wants to go East to Patterson Ca between 3pm and 6PM and manage the traffic when I am ready to get off work at 2PM Friday, Jan 31st, 2020)

Wherever I drive it is where God takes me. Google has tracked my whereabouts. The top 5-6 most visited places I visited are

A) (Home Marriage), Boss Mobility Network, LLC), (Home Based Business

B) Gas stations,

C) My daughter's family,

D) SFO,

E) Kaiser San Leandro,

F) MV Transportation (Work)

G) Oakland Scottish Rite Building (Church)

Allowing God to direct the last 6 months is the best structure I have experienced.

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3) Brian Must Speak / An ethnicity and name given to me I did not ask for it.

I LOVE BEING BLACK I did not ask to grow up where I did or choose the ethnicity. I did, however, choose to live in California and this last year March 3rd, 1979 that was 40 years ago.

I embraced it. The last 6 months reveals (I am home) Chicago, Illinois was where I was prepared to grow into manhood in California, This last 6 months has truly reshaped my life.

Challenged yet inspired to grow, create, innovate, and transcend my current difficulties. CPTSD, Anxiety & Worry (internal stigma) (External Stigma) Aging, Spiritual Darkness, Political Turmoil, struggling with feeling adequate, significant and worthy. Making Life choices that help others is the biggest struggle most of all.

Has God called me or sent me or called me to advance the notion that I desperately want to be a part of inspiring people but especially, Black folks, to learn to build and provide wealth to and on behalf of their families. Choose not to just spend and consume without having built up Investments into what will last after I am gone and out of the picture of life.

I am very interested in learning where will God will send me today and who will he place into my path. Unequivocably (Feliz (wife),

Children (Simone Isaac & Jay-Marie Hill

(Spouses Wes & Iggy, Partners Kayla Reed, and Grandchildren Camden, Jacoby and Siera, Isis, and Lucas

finally

My brothers and sisters - We have made more efforts to get closer emotionally because we care about each other

Paul, Thomas Mallory Hill, ( Older brother that has stepped into his role with offering much advice that I actually followed. Sternghtenfinder2.0? Yea he was the one who introduced this book to me. My life has not been the same as a result of his wisdom applied to his little brother. The difference between he and I educationally he has a PhD and I have a Masters Degree in Education.

( Rosemarie Gibbs Susie Hill ( Sisters) Myisha Hill (Niece) (& Children Micah 6'1" now, Malech and Nyima) , Dante Hill (nephew)