When you feel like renouncing 'Sansar'

Being a Sadhu means to live very simple, do good for others. Live for others. They same can be started from any where at any time in your life. There are various reasons, as you are not happy with your present situation, you do not have wish to do required efforts of this world. But actual reason should be of leaving this world is, “wisdom” because this state people does not think to ran away, where he or she is that place is suitable for work.

In a way it's good if you feel like that. Because when you have a ‘sadhu' feeling, I don't think you will like the worldly desires or materialistic like or will have any expectations from others. If you don't want that feeling and you want to come out of that feeling, just start having dreams or goals. which will definitely helps you to have a Normal life. Or else start helping the needy people (may be non financial)at your level.

It is impossible to quit Sansar. Firstly, the Sansar consists of not just humans but all life. And at all levels of life there is a struggle for existence. Nature is that way. Actually, at the human level, through constant work through the centuries and by using our bigger brains we have been able to reduce our problems a lot. Still, obviously, a lot of problems remain. Most human problems spring from our evolution. We have a strong instinct to cooperate and we feel bad for others.

At the same time we have strong selfish and self-preservation instincts as well which make us with-hold help and think only of ourselves. The idea is to learn this game and play it well. And in today’s information age one can play it well even with limited contact with other humans. Going to the forests to become a Sadhu is not an optimal solution. Sometimes you “feel” to quit materialistic world. Wake up, it is Ok to feel anything, anytime. We as human beings feels different at different situations, and this feeling is somehow depends upon your expectations, circumstances. As these circumstances changes: your feelings changes, as simple as that.

Never take your decision based on what you feels. Go with your heart but don't forget to take your mind along with it. You want to become a “Sadhu” is because you have created a image of Sadhu in your mind like a person who never frustrate, stressed, always happy, work less, dealing with less problems of world etc. And nobody but you convinced yourself that being a Sadhu is most restful profession or way to live this life.

But your mistakenly identifying how a Sadhu live. Have you ever question yourself that, “what I think about being Sadhu is based on any fact, formulae, reality? Or is just my imagination?”. Do you really step forward and validate what you feel is based on your feelings or reality? Almost every time you take your decision based on what your feelings are, you are creating another problem. Truth is that the one who cannot live happily through this materialistic world “Sansar”, cannot live happily being “Sanyasi”.

Being a sadhu doesn't necessarily mean wearing a particular attire, having big beard or matted hair. Neither one has to necessarily leave his/her family and go to the woods in order to become a sadhu. Sadhutva or saintliness is a state of mind. It has nothing to do with your body. The hordes of saffron clad people with big white beards you see at our religious places are not sadhus. 90% of them are escapists. Being a true sadhu is the most difficult thing in this world. Trust me it is easier to become a Bill Gates than being a true sadhu. Let me quote you from my experiences and that of my peers what you’ll have to go through in order to become a sadhu.

First thing which you should be ready to get out of is your ego. This is the first step. Now what is ego? We most of the times confuse ego with pride. However these are two completely different states of mind. Take this example. Suppose one guy has a huge house with all the modern luxuries and he is very proud of owning it. He keeps on flaunting this big house as his social status to others. Now this is called pride. Now there is another house which is modest and it’s owner is just satisfied with his house. He doesn't flaunt his house, he’s just happy that he ‘owns’ this house, it belongs to him. Now this sense of ownership of anything is called ego. It is easy to get out of pride but it is almost impossible or at least extremely painful to get out of this ego.

Whenever you think of anything or anyone as your own, you are actually letting yourself trapped in this web of ego. In order to let go of your ego, you’ll have to let go of anyone and anything which you think belongs to you. Be it your career, your money, your house whatever you call yours will go away from you. My Guru Ji said that for a number of days he only survived on cow dung because there was nothing else to eat even though He Himself belonged to a rich landlord family. I rose very high in my career very early and had every luxury available to myself. I used to spend lakhs in one night just for my entertainment. And then came a day when I didn't have money to buy milk for my child.

Becoming a sadhu is an ongoing process which continues throughout one’s life and even through many lifetimes. At every stage mother keeps on testing you. Suppose you have a very strong resolve and you are able to clear the early tests and have been lucky enough to find the right Guru and His grace. Then a different game will start. Sadhana gives you Shakti/power. The harder your penance is, more powerful you become. Now as they say power is poison. Everyone can not handle the power. Whosoever gets just a little minuscule power misuses it immediately. This is why most of the senior IAS s or ministers etc don't treat other people politely. Money is just a small form of power. And it is because of this small fraction of power most of the newly rich people think that they are from Mars. Interesting thing is most of the victims of this power harassment curse these powerful people but the moment they themselves become powerful, they become exactly like their oppressors. The problem does not lie with the powerful, this is the problem with ‘power’. Everyone thinks that he/she is a very nice human being and given the power he/she will never misuse it. However this is not the case.

What I am telling you was told to me also by my peers and I had a very good control over myself. But still 10 years back two people repeatedly kept on trying to harm me and at last I lost control and decided to use my power. To my good fortune mother stopped me from doing it and instead asked me to ask for wisdom for them. Now understand my frustration, I have all the power to punish the wrongdoer but instead I am asking for wisdom from him. Initially it was difficult but slowly I learned how important it is to forgive even after having the power to punish. It takes years to let go of this frustration because mother will keep on testing you again and again and every time you’ll have to just let go. Cheers!