YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO REMAIN SILENT.

I have seen parts or sides of me that I never thought existed, I have seen myself going through lengths and doing things I never thought I could do. This morning I hosted my first executive meeting, I remember walking out of my apartment and I gave out a heavy sigh, anxiety invaded my mind, I felt my stomach falling to my core, for a minute there I wondered if I am able to coordinate and execute such a responsibility but I remembered all the things I thought I wouldn’t be able to do and I just showed up and gave my all and they worked together for my good. I feel that the year  2022 is stretching me, it pulls me out of my comfort zone, everyone who had to step out of their comfort zone knows that its not an easy thing to do, it demands so much from you, emotionally, mentally  and physically yet I am still amazed at the woman I am, she who shows up, prayed up and ready to do all she can. My inner child is so proud of the woman I am becoming, I feel her cheering for me every time I have to give a presentation and I pull through, every time I execute a project and it becomes a success, every time I fail and I have to pick myself up, I am choosing my battles now but trust me I am not immune to the anxiety and sleepless nights, to thoughts about my future and all the things I still haven’t achieved. These thoughts are so tricky, they make me question my abilities instead of celebrating the progress, I am not immune to the fear too, I feel myself drifting in a whole new world of doubt and fear and its easy to get lost in it but for some reason, no matter how many days or hours it takes, I walk out of it, I try not to be hooked on feeling low and I understand that my dreams, my vision, what I need from God needs preparation, I never lose, I either win or learn.

This is for you, just a small reminder in case you think that you wont make it, this is for someone with a dream too big that its beginning to look impossible, for someone who had been feeling pressed down in every direction struggling to find balance, to the brave yet tired, to the willing yet limited by condition and to my personal favorites…the ones who trying everything they have even on days they feel empty, I want you to know that your cup will overflow, you will lead the pack, that fire is to refine you…learn from it, arise from it, feed from it, develop from it.

The truth is, somedays waking up is hard, staying in bed seems to be easier than dealing with rude clients, seniors who mistreat, the truth is sometimes you will need to shut down your feelings just so you may survive, just so you might not feel the severe pain of trying your best everyday without signs of improvements, the truth is some days you will feel like life is unfair, you will probably have a bittersweet relationship with yourself and hate the choices you have made, you will have to go through forgiving yourself again but there is another truth…listen to this one.

 The truth is……….

You are not here by mistake, you are going the right way, you will have to drop off some habits and friends who delay you, your breakthrough is on the way, your dreams will manifest into reality, just one call is going to change everything. We often look at how things can go from bad to worse just to leave room for disappointments, its better to hope for the worst so that we don’t have to go though the pain of things not going our way but what if you believed it, that this time it will be a miracle, that this time you will be victorious that every “crazy” scenario of things working out can actually come to pass, and the possibilities of life actually being what you dreamed of are high.

You, as much as everyone else deserves the best, yes, even in that situation…you deserve the best.

My name is Lerato and lately I have been pressed in every direction, but I take pride in how I have grown and how the fire that was supposed to kill me became a force, a passion that drives me. I have every right to quit, I have every right to cry and feel sorry for myself, I have every right to stop and stop trying, but I wont… I hope this encourages you to keep at it, I hope this helps you to define yourself as a person and not your circumstance.

I want to keep silent, I want to play safe and small, I dont want to sound arrogant, I dont want to sound like I know it all, though my voice trembles, though I doubt if I should speak at all because I am scared to make such a bold statement, I will make it anyway...I am the greatest, I am cream of the cream, I am a good choice, I am blessing, I am from nothing but I produce the best, what I touch turns into gold, what I have within me is indescribable, I am the best there is, no matter where I come from, no matter what I know, no matter what they say, no matter the thoughts that try to convince me otherwise, thats who I am.

You have the right to remain silent and act cute, never say a word and let everything define you, but should you be given a chance to speak, besides the fear you feel, besides the rejection you witnessed, besides the voices in your head...

WHO ARE YOU?