Can You Hear My Silence? Please ❤️

All of 27, armed with a lot of clarity, tons of humor, and sparkling eyes, I had no clue I could fall in love with someone so unexpectedly. 

I come across as a bold, mature, kind, caring, supportive person to many and those who know me resonate with the same sentiment. 

But, when it comes to confessing my feelings, let’s say my hands start shaking at the mere thought. 

No prizes for guessing; this person is super close to me, respects me with all their heart, is full of gratitude, and never fails to appreciate me. 

In my defense of not being able to cover this huge communication gap, I can only say that I will not want to burden a human because of my feelings. 

However, not saying it is becoming tougher with each passing second. 

I pray daily that I may get enough courage to confess my deep-rooted love, just like I have enough to bully all my friends. 

There are days when I feel that maybe my expression of love is highly flawed, and it got lost amidst my innocence, childlike behavior, and above all, my friendship. 

I try to ponder upon these feelings and then conclude that while I am mature enough to deal with whatever life throws at me, I am not wrong for keeping the child in me alive. 

I consider myself a powerful person, but the fact is that I can be oversensitive many times. 

All I want at this moment is to get over this feeling that sometimes feels so peaceful, overwhelms me at times, and makes me resent my friendship.

As I balance my share of self-esteem issues, I give myself hundreds of reasons why I should not go ahead. 

The question of “Am I beautiful enough?” continues to haunt me. 

The societal noise does get to my ears, despite my 1000 attempts to cut it. 

While I have enough muscle to hustle, there seems no end to this tussle. 

Will your Don gather enough courage to say it, or will these feelings die silently? 

Well, only fate and the following week will tell it! 

Till that time, please pray for me (I know you all love me) that I may be strong enough to deal with the consequences of whatever ensues.