November 21st 2019 - Things Are Never As They Seem: My Story...
Almost a year to the day where the majority of people who followed me will have thought - look at him he's made it!
It was the day that I woke up ready to deliver the biggest public talk of my life.
I was about to speak on stage with the likes of @tombilyeu and @iamcarriegreen - two people I had admired since starting my business.
I thought I'd be excited, but with everything going on in my life, I'd never had so much anxiety.
You see, that day, the amount of pressure on me was insane.
My 1st business was falling to pieces, I had cash flow issues that I had no idea how to deal with.
I knew that 48 hours after my talk, I had to find an amount of money that I had 0 access to & the only opportunity I had was to make it from stage that day.
Failure to do so would result in the good ol debt collection agency knocking at the door asking for assets.
I felt sick, nervous & mentally screwed by the time I stepped on stage.
I think it's fair to say that going on stage with that mindset was never going to end well & although I delivered my keynote. I suddenly went into shutdown mode.
I didn't make the sales I needed to.
I had no plan & quite simply did not know what to do.
It was this point that in my head the only option I had was to hide.
I'm not sure if you've ever been in a position where all you want to do is hide. Its the most awful feeling & at that moment I didn't want to think about the problems I had. I turned my phone off & cowered away in my room.
It hurts to type this thinking back, but the stuff going through my mind during that time in my life was not good.
It took a close friend of mine to give me the shake I needed to wake me up.
The tough love made me realise that the problems I had in my life were down to me.
I'd caused them, it was my fault & if I didn't pull myself together then I'd always be in this position.
I don't know if I should even post this, but I promised myself that I'd be transparent with what went on in my life last year.
My aim for this post isn't to generate sympathy.
It's to let anyone that is struggling right now know that if you need someone to talk to then I am here.
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4yKnow the feeling Chris, shaking it off is hard
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4yAwesome of you Chris! 👏 🙌
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4yHi Chris, I have to admit that I was one of those people that had seen you rise up and do fantastically well and had nothing but great admiration for all the things you had achieved. The sad thing is that when you are on the perceived rise - it becomes more difficult to admit that you may not be great at everything and may need help. We are all kind of hard wired that way where we feel can’t talk about a problem, which in turn amplifies the problem and leads to depression and anxiety. In business we get taught to tell everyone what we do because you never know who is listening!! Should that not work for all types of challenges in our lives! Thank you for being amongst the few who have stood up to say this happens to people and can get better just by talking to someone.
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4yIt's very brave of you share this Chris Taylor it will resonate with a lot of people and hopefully make them realise they're not alone if they feel the same. Asking for support and knowing thats not a weakness is the first step.
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4yYou perhaps don’t know what a light you shine in the world Chris June 2019 You certainly shine a light in mine and that led to a series of events where Ms Serendipity lent a hand I’m now reading a book that I recently co authored and each story I read gives me more humility and humbleness If I’d not said yes to the challenge you set Way back in June 2019 The opportunity to contribute to this book may never have happened It’s true We don’t know what us going on in each persons world AND We won’t ever until they give us permission to step into and be part of their world