Why Do We Keep Playing Small?

Many of us are feeling a calling to PLAY BIG

To play BIGGER than ever before

To finally let go of limitations, fears, doubts and excuses

To reclaim our authentic power of creation

We feel this inside… this deep magnetic pull…

This inner voice beckoning us to RISE

We hear it

We know it

But we keep playing small

Why?

I was sitting with this over the weekend as I was feeling some resistance bubbling inside of me

Then it hit me…

For thousands of years the power of the feminine has been suppressed

Because the power of the feminine has been deeply feared

So it was controlled and at times even punished by death

In my journey of reclaiming my own authentic feminine power I realized this is much deeper than a reclamation of power from my own experiences in this lifetime

It has involved deep ancestral healing that included clearing and transmuting pain, suffering and fear from within my own DNA passed down through my feminine lineage

And it has also involved deep subconscious decoding and rewiring of the beliefs, codes and programming that have kept us feeling disempowered or less than

But even though I have shifted and cleared a lot, I recently noticed that I was bumping against some new resistance that was showing up in the form of procrastination, excuses and doubts

So this weekend I decided to go deeper within…

I started to journal with some of these prompts:

“Why am I playing small?”

“What are the secondary gains of playing small?”

“What am I afraid will happen if I stop playing small?”

And wow so much came up!

It was actually quite emotional

I realized I had been playing small in order to protect myself

Based on the misguided idea or the misunderstanding that I need to protect myself from my own power

I have been afraid of my own power!!

It reminded me of one of my favorite quotes from Marianne Williamson’s A Return To Love:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us”

I can feel these words pierce deep within my heart every single time I read them… it’s like it chips away another layer

But it felt like it was going even deeper this time…

You see what would happen if we truly and fully owned our authentic power?

Well, for one we would have no more excuses… and that can feel quite scary

We would also remember once and for all that we are the powerful creators of our realities

The world as we know would change forever

We would never be the same

And with that comes fear…

Fear of the unknown

Fear that we could somehow be corrupted with such power

Fear that we could get hurt with such power

Fear that we could not be trusted with such power

Fear that we are not worthy of having such power

Fear that we would no longer belong

Fear that we would be judged or misunderstood

Fear that we would no longer be loved

When I wrote this down it hit me hard… I could feel in every bone

That’s when I knew that I had found the deep-seated fear within that needed to be decoded and transmuted

So why do we keep playing small?

It is not really because of fear of failure or fear of not being good enough

Yes they have played a role at times but that’s not the true “root cause”

The real root is that we are deeply afraid of owning our own power, so we give it away

I invite you to sit with that for a moment and feel it move things within

It is time now to no longer play small

It is time to reclaim the feminine power within that not only births life but also births new realities

I am bringing together a small group of women who are ready to rise into our authentic power, purpose and potential. If this resonates and you would like to learn more, please DM me.

With so much love,

Tatiana